Put Faith into action

I always had the idea to do something but end up didn't do it. And that's terrible. I hate it,it's a baaaad habbit for me. I wanted to try an audition to become a Kpop idol and I made a lot of research on trainee's life and so much more but I didn't do the most important job was FILM MYSELF. I keep on praying for God to open door for me but I didn't put anything into action. I tried to record but I end up singing really horrible. It's not that I'm bad at singing but I just couldn't sing,I don't know why. So I was plannning to put online audition. There's go cube company,I asked a ex-trainee about which company I should join, so a lot of them said CUBE is great,so I'll try to do it^^ I've been reading Nick Vujicic's Unstoppable, just the first few pages ,I was really really inspired to not to give up easily. Thank God for everything . and shaped me to who I am today. I love you forever.
These are some info about the audition if you guys is interested, take a look on the picture down below!